“I’ve seen fire and I’ve seen rain. I’ve seen sunny days that I thought would never end. I’ve seen lonely times when I could not find a friend. But I always thought I’d see you again”.
Matt, tomorrow July 30th is your birthday. I never thought you would be celebrating in heaven 🙏🏻.
Even though it’s been 8 birthdays without you here, my heart still breaks thinking about what could have been. You always loved birthdays. You were the first one to run your finger thru the icing laughing as I tried to slap your hands away. I can still see your smile and hear your laughter as you ducked while sticking your icing covered fingers into your mouth.
Even as an adult You would celebrate like a kid. Blowing out candles and making a wish thinking I didn’t see you sharing cake with the dogs.
You were a boy in a man’s body and I loved that about you.
You should be turning 45 but you are forever 37. I wonder what you would look like today. Would you have any gray starting to show. Would you have a wife and children. What would life be like for both of us had your disease not won. So many unanswered questions dance through my heart and head…
Tomorrow I will honor you. Tomorrow I will spend the day by the sea that you loved. Tomorrow I will help feed the homeless showing them that their life’s matter and they are loved.
Tomorrow we will serve Italian subs, your favorite food and give out 100 backpacks from A Hug From Matt.
Tomorrow tears will be shed but I will continue to follow your lead in helping those the world forgot. I will tell your story and celebrate your life that was cut too short.
Tomorrow and everyday of my life I will celebrate you my beautiful boy.
Happy birthday in heaven. Forever 37. Until we meet again.
Love you forever. Mom ❤️❤️
Matt, tomorrow, July 30th will be your 44th birthday. Sadly you no longer live on earth, you were called to heaven seven birthdays ago. Today my mood changes like the waves of the ocean we both love so much.
One minute the wave is small and kind. A memory of you as a child will bring a smile to my soul. Allowing me to rise above the pain your loss has imprinted on my soul. Then, without warning the big one comes out of nowhere pulling me out into the grip of the undertows forcing me to fight for my breath as the reality of tomorrow plays havoc on my heart. ❤️
Tomorrow I will be where you were. I will walk on the beach we once walked on together. I will feel the ocean breeze on my cheek pretending it is a soft kiss from you. I will look out over the vastness of the sea wondering if you know I’m here. Wondering if Heaven really is a beach like we always hoped it would be. I will drive past your house and make sure she is being loved as she was when she belonged to you. I will allow the memories to come bringing both pain and pleasure as I remember the times we shared together in the house we both loved.
As night falls, I will search the sky for your sign. I will search for the brightest star blowing a kiss to the heavens hoping it touches your cheek. I will say a prayer that you are healthy and healed sharing your birthday with Jesus. I hope you will feel my love floating from earth to the heavens searching for you.
Oh my beautiful boy, you will never know how much you are missed. How much you are loved. How I would do anything to have you standing at the door with the pups at your feet as I park in your driveway. Grabbing your presents out of my car as you walk closer with those beautiful eyes and amazing smile. You wrap me in a hug as you try to peek in the bags. The dogs dancing at our feet as we walk together into our house by the sea.
I remember the picture I bought when you first moved in. It was a house on the sea and quoted “Heaven is a little closer in a house by the sea.” My precious boy how I pray you are in that house in heaven and the sea is your playground. Until we meet again I will always feel closer to you by the sea. ❤️
Happy birthday my beautiful boy🙏🏻